Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Things in my journal 2003

A list if camp memories.
- Playing in the rain with Devon. (The first child I ever got to interact with on a daily basis who is autistic)
- Death threats from Sheena. (even at 18 people wanted to kill me.)
- 'This hill is ignorant'. (a direct quote about a really big hill we had to walk up several times a day.)
- Learning to play chess (and falling in love while doing it.)
- Jimmy's 'I killed him Gilbert moment'. (he squashed a bug and then cried and prayed for it.)
- Hugs. (so many kids so many hugs. Everywhere I've worked since this place has been 'hands off'.)


A failed attempt at poetry.
You called for a favor yesterday and cried to me about your life
you have no idea what you do to me on the inside
you make it so hard to say no
I want you back but I don't.

Favorite quotes
'Happiness makes up in height what it lacks in length' Robert Frost

'Our chief want is someone who will inspire us to be what we know we could be' Ralph Waldo Emerson

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Skins

I promise not to spoil you if you're watching Skins you should be. I know what you may be thinking. You've heard skins is an over sexed over drugged drama about pretty kids. Yes, it is I won't try to tell you it isn't. They're pretty and they have a lot of sex and do a lot of drug. What you might not know is they address a lot of issues teens deal with from the complexities to conveniences of friendship, dating relationships, coming out of the closet, emigration, dealing with long term illness, separated parents, poor parents, family values that don't always match your own, finding your own identity among friends and siblings, deciphering what love is and what it isn't. Behind the gratuitous sex and drug use are stories of real kids dealing with real issues that anyone can relate to.

So get off your high horse and try watching Skins.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Things I like more than Cake

- new episodes of Battlestar Galactica. Seriously the latest two episodes were so amazing from an action and character point of view.

- Nerdy people like me who make me smile when they geek out.

- Barack Obama for saying he made a mistake. I honestly don't think he did by making the choices of appointments he did. The problem is fancy people thinking they don't have to pay taxes like the rest of us peasents.

- Sharpie markers.

- Things that smell like cake. Shower gel, lotion, candels ect.

- Diet coke. If there was a 'diet coke cake' I would be screwed though.

- Talking nerdy about Dr. Who. It's a treat when I find someone who knows anything about it.

- Cute Pam & Jim moments on The Office... though crazy Dwight moments are awesome as well.

- When we make a break though with a resident at work.

- When a resident's delusions are just funny. ie: he's been to see me as in Pittsburgh perform as a fetish wrestler. Uh, no and ew gross.

- Getting paid to sit around and re-watch Horatio Hornblower.

- My pink christmas tree which I haven't taken down yet. It's now a Valentine's tree.

- Actually having time to sit down and write this list.

... Though having cake with all of these things would make them even more awesome.

Monday, February 2, 2009

The problem with being a good person

The problem with being a good person is you don't get a day off. I work a tonnage of hours at my day job, keep the nursery for a church baby sit for a family with special needs children and do all kinds of favors for my family and friends. Don't get me wrong I like doing these things most of them time. I usually do most of them on the first of my two days off a week. Today is my second day off and all I want to do is relax. Instead of relaxing I'm doing cost analysis of fixing my Parents ceiling for the, having to run my neighbor with staff infection to the Doctors office and then possibly to the Cleveland Clinic if he doesn't have a ride, 'loaning' my sister more money and making some graphics for a friend. None of these things I really want to do.

All I want to do today is pay MY bills, go tot he grocery store, organize all my financial information, take out the trash (more complicated than it seems given the inch thing ice between my door and the dumpster) , make a video for my channel watch some blogtv and Chuck in 3D. The problem is doing all these things instead of the one at the top makes me seem like an extremely selfish person to those who need something from me.

I guess taking a day off is the worst thing to do when you're a good person.