Weekends & Magic

I don't really have a normal weekend. I work the evening shift so I never get to see anyone ever. It's a pain int he ass. I don't really like to complain about it but it sucks so bad. No one is getting any holiday off and there isn't going to be any new staff till the new year. So basically no one can ever have an additional day off ever again.

Ugh. No complaining. I hate complaining.

If you haven't seen BBC's Merlin it's completely awesome and you should fun family actiony dramay good stuff for everyone. Really it's amazing and I love it and you should too. :)

Back to Friday

Soooo... I didn't post after work last night after work. I don't get home till midnight and I really didn't stay up to much later than that.

Nothing of note really happened yesterday. For real boring day nothing evened happened at work of interest. We had a nice honey mustard chicken and potatoes for work. And orange jello but I don't like orange jello.

like I said int he video I made... boring.

Could Do

Things I could do tomorrow before going to work...


-Clean out my car.
-Get my hair cut
-Clean my bathroom.
-Go to the bank.
-Do laundry.
-Finish my sewing project.
-Work on my mission application.

And about a million other things.


What I will be doing tomorrow. SLEEPING.

Grow Your Own

I just had to listen to my Mom give a speech about being anti-legalization of marijuana about 11 times in a row either making her practice it, recording it or editing it. All I want to do is punch myself in the face.


My person stance on the issue: I have far better more important things to worry about than what you grow and smoke.

I don't care. if you want to smoke it fine. I think it should be regulated like tobacco and alcohol thanks to people who do dumb shit like get stoned out of their minds and drive. As for people who use it medically... if it's helping you I'm for it. For those who get it 'medically' and abuse it / have no real reason for it, you're messing up the current system for others. You should be stoned (and not in the good way you want to be.).

In other news I'm am tired and grumpy hence why this is really to the point.

Lifeline

I learned the hard way today that I rely on my cellphone more than I feel I should. 3/4th of the way to work I realized I didn't have the stupid thing and had no time to go back to get it. I was stuck all day with lots of stress over this. I asked my Dad to look for it and he couldn't find it. I was beyond freaked out that I had seriously done something with it and it was lost for forever. I was tot he point where I was planning on dipping into my Africa money so I could go get a new phone. Ridiculous I know. This is on top of general work stress of crazy residents being crazy. And having to cook meals and grocery shop for the rest of the week as well as do my actual duties. It was beyond stressful. I seriously feel about 10 years older now because of it.

Turns out my phone was exactly where I thought it was and told my Dad to look he just couldn't find it at that one moment he looked. I still feel like quite the idiot for getting so stressed about something that shouldn't matter so much.

Friendship Quotes

Effy: Pandora, why are we friends? Do you ever wonder?
Pandora: Well that's super easy. You're my friend coz you're the coolest ever. And I'm yours coz I'd totally do anything you say, and none of your boyfriends ever wanna surf me coz I'm useless.
Effy: And that's it?
Pandora: Yeah.



If you haven't seen Skins before then you should simply because of the many different commentaries on friendships and how friendships change as people grow away from others and closer together. Seriously if you haven't seen it do.

I'm fortunate to have had the same best friend since pre-school. It's strange to have someone who's known you since the time you started to really form memories. It's strange to have that change over the years. My best friend recently got married and this is the first I've talked about it. Truth was I didn't know how to bring it up for a long time. It was a big shift to have to give my best friend up like that. Sure she had been dating this guy for 8 years but getting married officially made her someone elses best friend. It was just a strange moment to have everything change so quickly.

I've had other friendship changes too. Some people are in your life for an amazing time teaching you something amazing about yourself in the world and then they naturally drift away. I have some friends who taught me so much about myself and life that I will forever be in their debt. We're hardly more than facebook friends now saying happy birthday when the notifs come up or commenting on pictures they recently uploaded.

What never fails us are the memories. Friendships fleeting or forever we have the memories.

Busy busy

I love/hate busy days. I always like having stuff to do but when it's my day off I always just want to chill and do nothing. My job can be a mental and emotional train wreck so it's nice to have a break from that. This never, ever happens on a Sunday. Today's schedule:

7:30a Wake-up
9:15a Church
10:30a Second church where I work watching the kids.
12:30p Family lunch for grandparents birthday. (all kinds weird family stuff went down as always)
2:15p Pause to change clothes.
2:30p RiteAid run for new blush and tape.
3:00p Meeting (what I needed the tape for)
4:50p Arrived home. took a short nap.
6:00p Evening modern Worship service.
7:30p Dinner


It doesn't sound like a lot and there was a nap but I for real like to do NOTHING on days off. I'm a lazy bum I can't help it!

Multi-Tasking

Why do we all feel the need to do a million things at once? I know I do it all the time but really it isn't efficient at all. For example right now I'm having an IM, conversation a real life conversation, editing a photo and watching something on youtube. Is this really how normal peopel do things or just us? By us I mean my family earlier my Mum and I were cooking dinner, chopping apples, baking a cake and bitching about the day.

I really wonder if normal people do this or if it's just a my family thing.

Cute things

Yeah I'm writing this at 11:58pm so I'm still technically on track with BEDN. I can't help that I worked 3-11p today!


I have a list of cute things that cheer me up and I want to share some of them with you!



That's Bradley James and he's adorable. He's Arthur in the BBC's Merlin series. Adorable. Makes me happy to look at him. I hope he makes you happy too.




That's a highland cow covered in snow with it's tongue out. Not only does this cow regularly have emo hair it has it's tongue out and there's snow! I don't think it get cuter than this.


This is the glorious pooduck! It's been a driving force of adorable in my life. Part poodle part duck this little guy was pointed out to me via http://www.disturbingauctions.com/view.php?item=21 I really, really want a pooduck for christmas!


So those are a few things I find adorable that cheer me up. <3

Kabuki brush

I'm in love with my kabuki brush. In case you didn't know the kabuki brush is a makeup brush that is really great for putting on powder for all over face coverage. Who knew I knew this much about makeup brushes?

Oh that's right my new obsession is makeup! I stopped buying snacks and food because hello that's why I'm fat. Feel sad buy chocolate but now I've gone into feel sad buy makeup! It's more expensive but it's less calories. On the bright side I can officially put on cream eyeliner now and have no problem using an eyelash curler. I no longer fear blue eyeshadow (in moderation)! The only problem is I still haven't mastered lipstick. I chew my lips and it just doesn't work for me. I can barely make lip gloss happen. It's mostly just chapstick in my life. Sadly I have pale lips so this sucks like woah. I kinda want nothing more than to pull off the classic RED lipstick look. Alas I think I'll be working on this for some time.

Back tot he kabuki brush.... I'm addicted to the feel of it on my skin! I love putting powder on my face with it. I love it so much I've washed my face before bed come out and put the powder on and then gone to bed only to wake up with clogged pores forgetting to wash again! I just like to touch it.

Yes, I am a weirdo.

Nov/BEDN & Sad songs.

So back in April I did BEDA. Since it's NaNoWriMo and I have no intention of ever writing a novel I thought I'd bring back the BEDA philosophy and blog everyday of Nov. from here on out. Ambitious considering I can't really say to much about work anymore and the rest of my life is sad and boring.


So for today I guess I'll talk about some music. There are some songs out there that just make me cry. Sometimes I can't put my finger on it other times it's obviously words or melody and other times it's the connection to something else.

Moonlight Sonata - Beethoven If you've seen Mr. Holland's Opus you may remember the scene where he plays it for his class talking about how Beethoven was deaf after just finding out his son was deaf. Seriously breaks my heart.

Goodnight - Liz Calloway This one is words + performance that makes me sob. Here is a tid bit of the lyrics...

A world without the pain
That's stuck with you for far too long
A world that does contain
A love like mine to watch you grow strong

And when my time arrives
Please wait and make a place for me
For when I do arrive
Your face should be the first face I see

Dry away the tears
Lay aside your fears
No more pain for my love
You have now gone to sleep

Roses Theme- Murry Gold Yes, from the Doctor Who soundtrack because I'm lame. I just think of her standing on that beach crushed when this song plays. Ugh... seriously if you ever see the scene it will stay with you when you hear the theme.

I Can Only Imagine - Mercy Me Once again lame but I can't help it! Sometimes I just get in that place where I know I need the perspective of a song like this and it helps humble me and question what I would do in heaven in the presence of God.

Those You've Known - Spring Awakening Cast I won't spoil the show but this is the final song before bows.

Now they’ll walk on my arm through the distant night
And I won’t let them stray from my heart
Through the wind, through the dark, through the winter light
I will read all their dreams to the stars



I'm sure there are others out there but that's my short list. I actually like to have a good dry sometimes so if you have any awesome songs that make you cry I want to know!