Nov/BEDN & Sad songs.

So back in April I did BEDA. Since it's NaNoWriMo and I have no intention of ever writing a novel I thought I'd bring back the BEDA philosophy and blog everyday of Nov. from here on out. Ambitious considering I can't really say to much about work anymore and the rest of my life is sad and boring.


So for today I guess I'll talk about some music. There are some songs out there that just make me cry. Sometimes I can't put my finger on it other times it's obviously words or melody and other times it's the connection to something else.

Moonlight Sonata - Beethoven If you've seen Mr. Holland's Opus you may remember the scene where he plays it for his class talking about how Beethoven was deaf after just finding out his son was deaf. Seriously breaks my heart.

Goodnight - Liz Calloway This one is words + performance that makes me sob. Here is a tid bit of the lyrics...

A world without the pain
That's stuck with you for far too long
A world that does contain
A love like mine to watch you grow strong

And when my time arrives
Please wait and make a place for me
For when I do arrive
Your face should be the first face I see

Dry away the tears
Lay aside your fears
No more pain for my love
You have now gone to sleep

Roses Theme- Murry Gold Yes, from the Doctor Who soundtrack because I'm lame. I just think of her standing on that beach crushed when this song plays. Ugh... seriously if you ever see the scene it will stay with you when you hear the theme.

I Can Only Imagine - Mercy Me Once again lame but I can't help it! Sometimes I just get in that place where I know I need the perspective of a song like this and it helps humble me and question what I would do in heaven in the presence of God.

Those You've Known - Spring Awakening Cast I won't spoil the show but this is the final song before bows.

Now they’ll walk on my arm through the distant night
And I won’t let them stray from my heart
Through the wind, through the dark, through the winter light
I will read all their dreams to the stars



I'm sure there are others out there but that's my short list. I actually like to have a good dry sometimes so if you have any awesome songs that make you cry I want to know!

My Junk Is You

I got to go see Spring Awakening tonight! So if you have no idea what this is google it and you'll find an awesome new(ish) musical. Anyways, the show is and was amazing. You should go see it. The issues it covers are huge and so true for many young people. It covers the issues of doing poorly in school, being confused and uneducated about sex, masturbation, abuse, parents, teachers, life, death.... yeah lots of stuff.

So anyways it was amazing and I loved it and I got cast autographs because the cast was really awesome.

Sad thing of the night: the Penguins lost. :(

BEDA:Twenty One

I get really jealous of those who have poetic skills and music ability that can translate into writing their own songs. Sure I can play a crap ton of instruments but none of them are useful when it comes to writing music. I got a piano for my 13th (?) birthday and never did anything with it! I'm such a moron. What makes this harder is that I don't have any musical friend either. I don't have a single friend who plays piano or guitar to a level where they could teach me in exchange for food. (Yes, food. I like to cook!) So the long and the short of this is I think I might take some lessons of some kind on I think the guitar once I move and get settled again. Lessons cost money though and I'm trying not to spend money because I want to go on vacation in Aug. More on my vacation plans tomorrow though. For now I have to pack up my stuff and head to my apartment because I have some Doctor Who to watch. <33333 Series 4 where Donna brings the awesome. That's right I love Donna the most.

Yeah, worst blog ever but I don't care because... well because I want to be watching Doctor Who more than blogging.

BEDA:Eighteen

Why is it that when a really great music thing rolls into the area (by area I mean up to three hours away)I have to work the next morning and have no one to go with because it's on a tuesday night?

Neko Case is going to be in Cleveland and I want to go. Better yet it's $5 since I'm on the venue's mailing list. WHY MUST THE FORCES BE AGAINST ME WHEN IT COMES TO ALL THINGS AWESOME!?!?!?!?!

Stupid dark orbs.

Dark Orbs - Once upon a time I visited a psychic (I totally typed psycho first) right before we started college. The psychic told me I have dark orbs in my life. The she attempted to sell me a crystal to get rid of them. I did not buy said crystal and now when something annoying happens I blame the orbs.

In other news I am going back to sleep because I have to go to work tonight. Sleeping thought e pounding of tin is going to be fun. I love it when my Mother crafts and insists I come have dinner with them before work.

BEDA:Thirteen

I can't do this with one Album so I'm going to use my whole library.

Are you male or female:
Suffragette - Nina Gordon
Describe yourself:
Good Enough - Evanescence
How do you feel about yourself?:
I Can Do Better Than That - The Last 5 Years
Describe where you currently live:
Wild World - Cat Stevens
If you could go anywhere, where would you go?:
Holiday From Real - Jack's Mannequin
Your favourite form of transportation:
Get on Your Feet - Gloria Estefan
Your best friend is:
Falling Slowly - Once Movie (Most likely going to be the song for her wedding)
Your favorite colour is:
Blue Tulip - Okkervil River
What's the weather like?:
Asleep on a Sumbeam - Belle & Sebastian
Favorite time of day:
I'll Be Here When You Wake - The Reindeer Section
If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?:
I Need a Life - The Born Ruffins
What is life to you?:
A Comet Appears - The Shins (For the lyrics not so much the title)
What is the best advice you have to give?:
Don't Lose Yourself - Laura Veirs & Saltbreakers
If you could change your name, what would it be?:
Emily - Stephen Fretwell (We had over 5 Emily's in my graduating class)
Your favorite food is:
Warm Panda Cola - The Boy Least Likely To
Thought for the Day:
Meddle - Little Boots (lyrics more than title again)
How would you like to die?:
Better In Time - Leona Lewis (aka: Of old age)
Your soul's present condition:
I'm Still Hurting - The Last 5 Years
The faults you can bear:
The Fear - Lily Allen
Your motto:
I Believe - Spring Awakening

BEDA:Six

I hate having an over abundance of emotion. It's ridicules when commercials make me cry and I get all girly because stress has far to large of a place in my life and I can't cry when I really want to. it's bad but I can't even find the worlds to write about it because I've been keeping a lot locked up for so long. It's easier to deal with life when you keep a part of yourself locked away and to be honest now is not the time for that wall to be breaking down if it could just wait two weeks I'd be happy to let the crocodile tears flow.

I went to Akron to visit my best friend yesterday. It was nice we had pizza (till I made myself sick with it) and watch Skins and Doctor Who. Sadly no new skins till next year and only the specials for Doctor Who this year. Bright side is the next special comes out for Easter. Though I will say I miss the emotional connection the regular companions bring to the mix.

Random: The two cats my parents have are funny. The little old one (lady) bosses around the big younger fluffy one (Mod). Mod was laying on the pillow just infront of me and Lady strolled up and wacked Mod over the head till she moved giving up the pillow.

Song of the Moment: Lullabay - Dixie Chicks
I'm not a country fan but some of the Dixie Chicks stuff doesn't count because it's special and I say so.

Music time it is the end of 08 after all.

I think my 08 playlist could best be described as random just like most of my life. The songs are pulled from different people places and things over the last year. I will admit the beginning of 08 seems like a bit of a blur but I'll do my best to make the songs as inclusive for all of 08 as possible. Yes not all of this music is the best or new but get over it. It's my year it review!

Chocolate - Snow Patrol
Beautiful Life - Charlotte Martin
Don't Stop Me Now - Queen
Elevate Myself - Granddaddy
I Don't Fell Like Dancin' - Scissor Sisters
Plain & Simple - Hello Stranger
Mouthwash - Kate Nash
Prince Charming - Adam & The Ants
Pull Shapes - The Pipettes
McPherson's Lament - Rogue's March
New Romantic - Laura Marling
A-Punk - Vampire Weekend
You Can't Stop the Beat - Hairspray
The City is At War - Cobra Starfish
Mistress Mable - The Fratellis
Shakin' - Metro Station
Adventures in Solitude - New Pornographers
A Comet Appeared - The Shins
Rock me Sexy Jesus - Hamlet 2 Soundtrack
Paint or Pollen - Blind Pilot
Notice me Horton - Seussical the Musical
Dents - The Acorns
* The Last 5 Years (The whole soundtrack)
*Spring Awakening ( Seriously Why didn't I know about this show till 08?)

And A million more I can't think of at the moment.
Happy end of 08 everyone!

David Archuleta killed Neil Diamond... in the worst way. Jason Castro didn't do much better either.

Seriously someone needs to take a dart gun of some kind to that kid so he stops murdering great songs in the name of 'tweens'.

Neil has a special place in my heart. He is on the soundtrack of my childhood and the Jazz Singer is still one of my favorite movies (even if it is awful). Seriously the idea of being in the same room as Neil makes me a little weak in the knees. Yes I know that's tragic in a Saving Silverman kind of way (yes I also love that movie).

My favorites from idol this year: David Cook and Syesha Mercado. They took Neil and made his work perfect for them without murdering it.